Bless my wife and her missus
trying to convince me to go and meet someone new- which would be absolutely fine if I had money. (Or indeed, a job) I’m completely broke now, I can’t afford to go out anywhere even if I wanted to.
Also why is it so hard to understand that I really can’t do casual encounters with strangers? For one, I’m so self-concious I can barely trust that anyone who says they’re into me as it is. I’m hardly going to sleep with them on that basis alone.
And secondly I have a hard time separating it from emotion, unless I’m pretty smashed, but even then I’ve held back, thanks to my hangups (and often, better judgement).
But I certainly couldn’t do it sober if I didn’t feel at the very least vaguely deeply for them. Love and sex are veeery tied up for me.
That being said…I could really do with a new hookup. Fuck knows where I’d find one in this town though. :/